Seriously: only 11 posts all year? What a lame-o blog you are reading. A person starts a blog because they have something to write about. When I started this blog I had something to write about. Actually, here’s something I never told you. When I started this blog what I wanted to write about was my thoughts on how to do church. It was the fall of 2007 and I had all sorts of thoughts about worship leading and prayer and getting small groups of people together and just doing life together, and I was thinking about how church didn’t need to be done the way church is always done in the tradition I come from. I had been in a volunteer or leadership role of some kind in a church or parachurch organization for around 12 years and I had a few things to say about what I thought it was all about.
However 2007 was also the year the last church I led in closed down, and other significant circumstances in my life all whirled into one mighty storm, and pretty soon what I had to say about church organization and service structures didn’t seem quite so important anymore. The topic on my mind was now this storm, and getting the hell out of it. And, you may have noticed, that pretty much occupied all my thinking and processing on this blog, with the occasional distraction, until this year.
Now the storm has passed (hurray), and, if I may extend the metaphor, I have looked around and noticed I seem to be in the middle of the ocean. Not all by myself, fortunately, but with family and friends around me and activities I am involved in. A pretty good life, I think. But I am in the middle of the ocean. I lost sight of land long ago and now when I’m not actively combating it I feel listless and without direction, and overall without much to say.
On the other hand I have three little impetuses (not to be confused with imps) who keep me busy and right now are careening around the room waiting for me to play with them. So for the next half hour at least, I have a direction.
I’m sure you have been wondering how my 21-day program was going. Yes you, there at your computer reading this. Weren’t you wondering? Sure, you say, why not. Well it’s gone just fine. I’ve started over a few times and I think I lost count a few times. BUT (and this is a mighty but), my habit is dwindling. This is a good thing. Has it made me a better person? This week I feel like anything but a better person than once I was. So perhaps day 37 is not the best day to ask me that. And today I will not answer you. But my program is succeeding, dear reader, if not a success just yet.
I need to end this post now; I’m sounding like a 7th grader’s diary. If 7th graders’ diaries made sounds. Or like Stanley Spadowski when he sat around on channel 62 and made everyone watch him eat his corn pops. I think I’m gonna go outside and play now.